tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6106386934630496452024-03-13T02:20:29.928-07:00低調的奢華「若你水球前來,我將滿舵而去。」ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.comBlogger580125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-72544550718868431212018-02-28T07:34:00.002-08:002018-02-28T07:34:33.095-08:00三十歲之後<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-4783762014231810272017-11-25T20:50:00.002-08:002017-11-25T20:50:52.282-08:00聽牙醫的話<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-2206632024253045862017-06-26T08:04:00.001-07:002017-06-26T17:49:52.290-07:00膝蓋<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-35011437514924532692017-06-11T00:37:00.000-07:002017-06-11T00:37:02.468-07:00不看《花甲男孩》<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">但其實也是很擔心廣仲的演技啊(也擔心太多),有幾幕我幾乎分辨不出到底是哭還是在笑,畢竟小小小的眼睛搭配大粗框眼鏡,以及總感覺傻傻的笑容,確實不好表達情緒啊!(幾次我都好擔心他念完台詞後就會脫口而出『耶』!)但出人意料地,廣仲特殊的表演風格卻更符合劇中主角設定,幾場已廣為人知的對手戲,也令人驚艷不已。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">在一切最終都煙消雲散之際,作為一種抵抗,愛是我們能動用</span><a href="https://www.blogger.com/null" name="_GoBack" style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;"></a><span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif;">的唯一的伎倆。詩裡已經反覆述說過了:因為愛,這個世界才得以被拯救。</span></div>
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ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-36449020922596577502016-11-29T07:12:00.001-08:002016-11-29T07:12:44.439-08:00親愛的世界我好困惑<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-80167520591518491042016-10-23T07:55:00.003-07:002016-10-23T07:55:47.886-07:00詩集出版<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<br />ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-87823398774204792132016-09-27T20:29:00.003-07:002016-09-27T20:29:26.587-07:00痱子<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; text-indent: 24pt;">回想近期對於炎熱的深刻記憶約莫在當兵時,我是在酷熱的八月於太陽直射北回歸線通過的嘉義新訓──即使入營前一個月便已戒除空調提早適應──但每天穿著厚重的迷彩軍服,在盛夏的水泥地上出操,衣服從淺綠迷彩因為吸飽了汗水變成深綠迷彩;不久被陽光和熱風穿乾後又變回淺綠迷彩。一日之中,衣服的顏色變換數次,漸漸浮現析出白色的鹽漬,有時集合時放眼望去,就像一畝畝的人體曬鹽場。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 新細明體, serif; text-indent: 24pt;">此刻我坐在三樓靠窗的診間,趁著助理準備器械或是等患者起身漱口的空檔,望向窗外──車水馬龍的市民大道和復興南路交叉路口,即使臨近下班時段,陽光仍是亮晃晃,人們在海市蜃樓般的東區街上來來往往。想到再過不久就要中秋,吃過月餅後,日子或將變得涼爽些許。那些在外辛苦工作的人們,身上的疹子也要逐漸淡去,留下紀念勞動的斑點。</span></div>
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ericqazhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05986074455127423792noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-610638693463049645.post-60514812576643507932016-09-25T07:00:00.000-07:002016-09-25T07:00:29.181-07:00明日的蛋餅<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">有一陣子,新聞報導許多早餐店的衛生問題,室友於是關心起我每天早餐都吃些什麼?「玉米蛋餅。」昨天呢?「培根蛋餅。」那前天呢?「火腿蛋餅,雙蛋!」怎麼可能每天都吃蛋餅,可以吃一些吐司啊、漢堡啊!為什麼要一直吃蛋餅呢?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">面對室友的質問,關於蛋餅的記憶或許可追溯至小的時候。當時還不是西式早餐店林立的年代,我時常光顧家裡附近一家老太太開的中式早餐店。睡眼惺忪的早晨,時值國小的我站在老太太滾沸的平底油鍋旁,看她熟練地在白瓷碗裡舀進綠蔥末、打下雞蛋,右手持鐵湯匙嘎啦嘎啦地將蔥末與雞蛋攪勻後灑入鍋中──從蛋液冒泡的程度便可以了解那油鍋的熾熱溫度──在尚未回過神來時,老太太即以迅雷不及掩耳之速將蛋液以餅皮覆蓋,讓它們在最適合的時機與溫度融為一體。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">整個過程最令人印象深刻的是──接下來老太太會絲毫不感覺到燙地徒手以左手作為支點,右手持</span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: 24pt;">L</span><span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">型的煎鏟,讓蛋餅展現一次完美的翻身。在寒冷的冬日清晨到了國小教室,坐在自己的座位上吃著冒出熱呼呼白煙的蛋餅時,我總是想著老太太左手紅通通的油亮指尖。或許那就是我對於蛋餅溫暖形象的雛型記憶。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">之後到台中讀書乃至於到上大學到台北念書,換過幾間不同的早餐店,也嘗試過不同口味與樣式的蛋餅。有些連鎖西式早餐店便宜行事,以</span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: 24pt;">SOP</span><span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">流程製作出來的蛋餅如蠟紙裹上蛋液,吃起來令人生氣,便不再光顧;反倒是一些自家經營的家庭式早餐店誠意十足,自備綠蔥末、特炒辣椒醬,精選餅皮</span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: 24pt;">(</span><span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">有些還是自己調製麵糊桿餅皮</span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: 24pt;">)</span><span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">。烹飪方式也下過功夫,有的會以熱油鍋逼煎出香氣;有的將餅捲起後還特地以乾煎台烘過幾分鐘,使蛋餅充分展現出蛋香、蔥香與餅香。每次買單,我都忍不住向煎台師傅行注目禮後才感激地離去。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">因此後來在鯨向海的書中讀到關於初進醫院見習,那些「在冷颼颼的風霧中伴著鳥叫聲兀自發出鮮黃光芒的蛋餅」時,不禁有一種「他書遇故知」之感。自己擔任住院醫師時,每每為了趕赴八點的晨會,總是無法悠閒地坐在店裡享用熱騰騰的早餐。多次在前往醫院的路上,我總是擔憂著不透氣紙盒裡的蛋餅,原本酥脆的餅皮就要慢慢地萎軟下去。如果腳步慢一些,之後面對冷掉的蛋餅,那繁忙的一天將會失去美好的開始。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">但其實印象中只吃過那麼一回的夢幻蛋餅,是在高中時,有一次到南投參加營隊,結束後的隔日搭車回家前,朋友帶我去吃的「水蛋餅」。因為過於久遠,只記得當時的蛋餅上淋滿勾芡的香甜醬汁,滿溢著蛋香,餅皮水嫩而</span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: 24pt;">Q</span><span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">彈並略帶焦香。雖與我後來喜歡的乾式脆皮蛋餅路線迥異,但令當時因為幾天的營隊生活疲憊至極的我,至今仍難以忘懷。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">然而蛋餅不若其他的漢堡、吐司可以先把原料備妥,等客人點餐後迅速組合出餐;蛋餅得現點現做,才有辦法將配料、蛋液及餅皮完美融合,蛋餅宜內用不適合外帶。因此若貪懶,賴床個幾分鐘,便無暇等待得花時間現煎的蛋餅。只能拿些檯面上早做好的冰冷三明治,展開悲壯淒苦的一天。</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">蛋餅考驗著每日晨起的意志與心魔。而重複並不令我厭膩,每天的蛋餅使我幸福。因此我要早早睡了,為了精神飽滿的明日</span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: 24pt;">(</span><span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">與蛋餅</span><span lang="EN-US" style="text-indent: 24pt;">)</span><span style="font-family: , serif; text-indent: 24pt;">。</span></div>
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